This world is mad

Have got this sudden adrenaline rush to blog so yup. Life's been pretty monotonous lately I must say. Everyday it just revolves around school. Major tests and exams are coming up REAL soon and it's seriously sending me into a panic state. I know how this site has become a vacuum for me to only update about my life and not my thoughts anymore. I don't tell people how I feel anymore, except when I really need to. I don't even blog about how I feel towards many things or even anything at all. It has become a very redundant space where people only come to keep track of what I am doing and whether I am still close with whoever or whether I failed my Exams or not. I will try to write more stuff here just let me be done with this entry.

Been waking up late for morning lesson for the past few weeks and I'm seriously worried for my attendance. Everyday I'll have only less than 4 hours of sleep due to all the heavy work load. But on a hindsight, I've no one to blame but myself for being such a procrastinator. Oh well, enough of school. Been thinking a lot lately and I think it's time for me to be firm with my decision and not keep coming back for more. I need to be happy. Yes, Friends. OdywrhmIwtfywIag.

Cause life isn't a bed of roses

Well, life's pretty much boisterous and hectic. Things are getting out of hand, I seemed to be in a mess now but it's okay, I know I'll slowly pick myself up because no matter what, life still goes on. Nobody will always be there to lift you up, to lend you a helping help, a pair of listening ears. Most of the time, you're pretty much alone. Throughout this 17 years of my life, I can say that this year, 2011, I've really learnt a lot, went through a lot. It also made me have a clearer view of certain things, who are the people who's worth having by my side and who are not. Though it's been only the 7th month into this year but within this 7 months, I've met many people, and some whom I can label them as, without second thought, my true friends, friends who I treasure the most and don't wanna lose. No doubt Nigel Tan's one of them. Though it's been quite some time since we last met, we don't talk to each other that often anymore but I know I can always count on you no matter what. Thanks a lot for always being there. I really hope this friendship goes on and on, closer in distance and not apart. Besides him, of course there's my girls too. Though it's only 3 months since we know each other but I must say, time can never be used to define a friendship. Lastly, not forgetting my friend of 6 years. You know who you are. I love you so much. :) At times, I really hate life so much but it's them who keeps me going at my lowest point. I'm really thankful to have them by my side, in my life, really. (:

Say goodbye to poly? :(

So, MSTs finally over but there's still the results part to be worried about(for certain modules). Yesterday, got to know from my lecturer that I actually passed Chemistry! Though it wasn't a really good pass(told some of them my results and they laughed at me. :( LOL!) but I'm really satisfied with it already because from the very start I didn't expect a pass since I only studied 2 out of 4 chapters and I really really hate Chemistry. Been staying up the whole night for the past two days just to finish up my 10 pages of lab report and project and I was seriously undergoing a major sleep deprivation. Yesterday was the worst I swear, was feeling extremely cranky throughout the whole day due to the lack of sleep. Didn't sleep a wink at all and just headed to school straight, and school started at 8am and ended at 6pm that day! But at least did something with my girls to enlighten my mood a little. The four of us(Darling, Sofia, Yi Wei & I) decided to skip Gen Ed class at the very last minute and headed to Moberly to sing Karaoke. Really had a splendid time with them!

On a heavier note, I'm gonna get de-registered from my course any time soon. :( Really regretted it so much. Sigh... ): MSTs and school been taking up so much of my time that I don't have time for my friends. It's been so long since I last went to Ngee Ann poly. :( Laughs. I miss some of them so much, especially NIGEL TAN!!